Ok guys as some of you guys know my last journal that I deleted was not good. And if you got to the end you would know and have seen that I haven't been here. I haven't been happy. But one day a random person came to my page and gave me advice. Advice I could not seek on my own. Something I couldn't tell myself because I was deeply lost within myself. I had completely changed after several events happened. And some of you guys have noticed it. I didn't talk as much and if I did I seemed really depressed.

And I owe you a lot and as long as other people I will mention later. But she came to me and said " You cannot beat somebody who never gives up, there for; the only way to fail is to give up. There is a saying, “Life is pain”, the only way to hurt yourself the deepest is try to avoid it. Life is just a dream. How can you ever succeed if you stop trying, when you stop, what will be the purpose of your life? Nothingness? What will you do after? If you have nothing to keep you going, something you are willing to dies for, how can you live? You think you feel empty and hurt now, but you will feel a lot, a lot worst when you will give up. You will feel so hollow and so much pain you will not be able to stand it. God has a plan for all of us, if you do not have faith in God, have faith in yourself. Because after you give up on the world, the world will give up on you. Life is beautiful, and the right way to success is just around the corner. Maybe you do not see it, that is the problem. Tell me about it, maybe I can help." Those words inspired me deeply. The old me was brought back to the surface. and if some of you guys haven't met that side of me you will. I'm finally back to myself. I'm finally happy again after a very long time. And I will continue to be happy and love anyone and everyone <3

I've been absent from dA for awhile now. When I left there were all sorts of journals from my friends talking about how they were unhappy, sad, depressed with life. When I came on today and read them they were the complete opposite. ^-^ I'm glad you guys are getting better as I am. I'm glad that times are changing. Though I wasn't there to make your lives any better I will be here now ( lol well when I get my computer back )

Actually being away from the computer has done me a lot of good. Not dealing with the drama and shit that goes around. I've spent time with my family and being the silly crazy chick I use to be. Having fun just dancing in a room with loud music on a rainy day with my siblings. ^^ But of course I didn't get better on my own. Not only do I owe thanks to a lovely random deviant but to also my best mates ( meaning best friends forever ) in the whole wide world. They are the most craziest guys ever but I love them dearly to also my best girl friend though she is still going through some tough times still :\ ( I'll talk to you as soon as I get the chance <333 ) AND!!!! To I'm glad he was around and is still around <33333

But yeah just a couple special thanks though I owe all you guys many thanks and probably my whole life for being there for me x-x I got to many friends to count XD So thanks to all also that was there for me ( YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE! ) Oh and you guys should check out this new anime lol awesome what they have going on in there it's called Shuffle so go on youtube and check it out. It's some crazy pervy shit that goes on in there. SO BE WARNED! Ok ok I'm done now so I'll see you guys when I get my computer back.

~Alex